بوی کاهگل و آواز پرنده
The Smell of Adobe and Birdsong
| Page & Title | TranslatedWritten | عنوانصفحه |
|---|---|---|
12 Adobe A bird calls bird-behind-wall | 4-8-2026Autumn 1989 | بوی کاهگل پرنده ای |
28 Old News I wish I was a ruined watch tower old-news | 1960 - ۱۳۳۹ | ۲۸ آخرین خبر کاشکی من برج ویرانی به راهی دور بودم |
30 Moonlight, Sunlight Go - be moonlight for another’s evening moonlight-sunlight | 4-3-2026Borojerd 1960 - ۱۳۳۹ | ۳۰ مهتاب بُرو مهتاب شام دیگران باش |
35 Ancient Tree An ancient tree ancient-tree | 3/22/261961 - ۱۳۴۰ | ۳۵ درختی کهن تک درختی کهن |
40 Life... Life... life-tune | University Quarter, Tehran, 1963 - ۱۳۴۲ | ۴۰ زندگی... زندگی... |
48 To my daughter Shade moments shadow-daughter | 4-29-261980s دهه ۱۳۶۰ | ۴۸ به دخترم سایه لحظه ها |
50 I closed my eyes bomb-kiss | 1984 - ۱۳۶۳ | ۵۰ چشمانم را بستم |
61 In the space between the sea & jungle jungle-bomb | May 9, 1988, Isfahan - ۱۳۶۷/۲/۱۹ | ۶۱ در فاصله دریا و جنگل |
62 I told you my poem … laugh-cry | Nov 1988 - ۱۳۶۷/۹ | ۶۲ شعرم را برای تو گفتم... |
66 Ah struggle… soul-mold | 1989 - ۱۳۶۸ | ۶۶ های... |
100 Spring came gone-coming | 12/17/1989 ۱۳۶۸/۱۲/۱۷ | ۱۰۰ بهار می آید و تو رفته ای |
127 I quiet-moon | April 1991 ۱۳۷۰ فروردین | ۱۲۷ من |
128 One thousand birds of love heart-partridge | 1/4/1991 کلاردشت ۱۳۷۰/۱/۴ | ۱۲۸ هزار پرنده عاشق |
131 No matter how much meager-dew | April 15 1992 ۱۳۷۰/۱/۱۶ | ۱۳۱ هر چه دوستم داری |
149 I watered the cage water-cage | July 25 1993 - ۱۳۷۲/۵/۳ | ۱۴۹ قفس را دادم |
202 you morning-glory | 05/03/20262000s - دهه ۱۳۸۰ | ۲۰۲ تو |
203 Snow falls... snow-beautiful | 05/3/20261990s - دهه ۱۳۷۰ | ۲۰۳ برف میبارد... |
Stay You wish to stay stay-go | می خواهی بمان می خواهی بمان، |
بوی کاهگل
Adobe
bird-behind-wall
Renderedپرنده ای پشت دیوار کاهگلی می خواند. دیوار را نقاشی کردم باران بارید دیوار پاک شد. بوی کاهگل با آواز پرنده ماند
A bird calls behind a cob wall. I painted the clay the rain washed it away. The smell of wet hay with bird song remains
آخرین خبر
Old News
old-news
Renderedکاشکی من برج ویرانی به راهی دور بودم تا که در شب های بارانی کبوتر ها نم آلوده به زیر سقف ایوانم به یک پا تکیه میدادند و میخفتند بوی نم آلود و مستی آور پر ها با صدای وهم انگیز نفس های کبوترها کاهگل ها خیس باران خاطرات دور دوران را به خاطر زنده میسازد اسب خاطر را به شهر یادهای دور میتازد کاشکی من برج ویرانی به راهی دور بودم تا که در شب های بارانی کبوتر ها نم آلوده به زیر سقف ایوانم به یک پا تکیه میدادند و میخفتند پای ایوان در کنار آتش سوزان دو شبگرد غم آلوده برای یکدگر از سرگذشت خویش می گفتند.
I wish I was a ruined watch tower on a back county road so that on rainy nights the damp & dirty pigeons could sleep on one leg under my railings. The damp drunken smell of filth & feather the sound of their weeze & rasp the wet clay, wet cob, mouldering adobe - it brings to mind an older era - a lost way to make a living. & So the horses of our minds run off to towns of nostalgia. But I do wish I was a ruined watch tower on a back county road so that on rainy nights the damp & dirty pigeons could sleep on one leg under my railings & there by it’s base 2 watchmen burn fire telling tales & adventures to one another
مهتاب
Moonlight, Sunlight
moonlight-sunlight
Renderedبُرو مهتاب شام دیگران باش دو روزی هم به کام دیگران باش مرا در سرد سیر غم رها کن برو خورشید بام دیگران باش
Go - be moonlight for another’s evening For a day – or two even Go be their longing Leave me in the cold rut of grief [but] Go – be sunlight for someone else’s dawning
درختی کهن
Ancient Tree
ancient-tree
Renderedتک درختی کهن به سینه دشت... خسته از باد و حمله طوفان دستمالی سپید بر پنجه خواهد از لشگران باد آمان...
An ancient tree on the chest of the steppes weary of the wind & squalling onslaught A white handkerchief in his claw – Begging the armies of the wind for mercy
زندگی...
Life...
life-tune
Renderedزندگی... یک نوا یک ترانه یک آواز یک نگه یک تبسم و یک ناز دو کبوتر دو روز در بر هم روز سوم اسیر پنجه باز. کوی دانشگاه تهران ۱۳۴۲
Life... a tone a tune a song a glance a grin & tenderness – two doves, two days in each other's arms, the third, caught in the hawk's talon.
[ناز - coy, charm, flirt]
به دخترم سایه
To my daughter Shade
shadow-daughter
Renderedلحظه ها مثل دانه های کوچکند روی خاک خوب سبز میشوند رشد میکنند میوه می دهند. خاک خوب خاک عاشق است خاک تر خاک پرثمر...
moments are as small grains on good earth they green they grow they bear fruit. Good earth is loving earth moist earth fruitful earth…
bomb-kiss
Renderedچشمانم را بستم تا تو را عاشقانه ببوسم بمب افتاد... مرغابی ها پریدند چشم گشودم تو، در آغوش دیگری بودی... های... جنگ... ۱۳۶۳
I closed my eyes to kiss you as lovers do the bomb fell... the ducks scattered... I opened my eyes: there you were - already in another's arms ... ugh ... war
jungle-bomb
Renderedدر فاصله دریا و جنگل زنی را دوست دارم... در هر نمناران به جنگل پناه می برم تا در آغوشش... به دریا بیاندیشم... ۱۳۶۷/۲/۱۹ اصفهان
In the space between the sea & jungle [there is] a lady [that] I love Everytime they bomb the jungle I go to the shelter of her hug Into her sea without thinking
laugh-cry
Renderedشعرم را برای تو گفتم... خندیدی... با دیگری خواندم... گریست...
I told you my poem … You laughed … I sang another… Weeping…
soul-mold
Renderedهای... جنگ... جانم را... که در فاصله نفس های عاشقانه شکل می گیرد
Ah struggle… Y’know my soul was molded In those distances Between a lover’s breathing
gone-coming
Renderedبهار می آید و تو رفته ای ای کاش ای کاش بهار رفته بود و تو می آمدی
Spring came & you had gone O but if O but if spring had gone & you were coming
quiet-moon
Renderedمن خاموشم تا ماه... با تو... بگوید
I Am quiet Until you hear From the moon
heart-partridge
Renderedهزار پرنده عاشق …در سرم میخوانند …دلم کبک تنهاییست …بی حرف …سر در برف
One thousand birds of love are chanting in my head… my heart is a lone partridge… without words… snow around its head…
meager-dew
Renderedهر چه دوستم داری نمیگویم کم است, کوچک ترین دانه باران بزرگترین شبنم است…
No matter how much You love me I won’t call it meager There – In the smallest grain Of rain Is the largest dew-drop
water-cage
Renderedقفس را دادم پرنده... سبز نشد...
I watered the cage the bird... ain't no greener...
morning-glory
Renderedتو خاک خشک را تر کن دانه نیلوفر با باد... دهه ۱۳۸۰
you wet the dry earth morning glory seeds with the wind...
نیلوفر - water lily - but possibly also morning glory?
snow-beautiful
Renderedبرف میبارد... برف میبارد... من پیرتر میشوم تو زیباتر... دهه ۱۳۷۰
Snow falls... Snow falls... I grow older you... more beautiful...
می خواهی بمان
Stay
stay-go
Renderedمی خواهی بمان، میخواهی برو... رفتنِ تو، دل انگیز تر از آمدن دیگری ست
You wish to stay you wish to go your going is more enchanting than another’s arrival
Work in progress — toggle the layers under each poem to compare them side by side: Machine (raw OCR) · Lantern (a working draft) · Ben (the finished translation). Empty layers are hidden.
| Page & Title | TranslatedWritten | عنوانصفحه |
|---|---|---|
13 The city is dark. dark-city | 1968 - ۱۳۴۷ | ۱۳ شهر تاریک است |
22 In the sands of imagination's dried-up spring dried-spring | 1958 - بروجرد ۱۳۳۷ | ۲۲ در ماسه های چشمه خشکیده خیال |
23 Almond Flowers You are not there before my eyes, almond-flowers | 1959 - بروجرد ۱۳۳۸ | ۲۳ گل های بادام به رویم در نیستی تو |
25 From beside the plain, city-smoke | 1968 - ۱۳۴۷ | ۲۵ از کنار ..دشت |
25 Swallows in the Vault of the Sky The horizons are a warm half-light of blood — sky-swallows | 1960 - ۱۳۳۹ | ۲۵ پرستوها به طاق آسمونند افق ها سایه روشن گرم خونند نمی دونی که مرغان خیالت به طاق سینه ام با درد چونند |
26 I am that giddy, drunken waterfall drunk-waterfall | 1960 - ۱۳۳۹ | ۲۶ آن آبشار سرخوش و مستم |
32 City of smoke, wooden-horse | Tehran 1961 - تهران ۱۳۴۰ | ۳۲ شهر دود |
34 On the rough kiln-hot tracks — road-peasant | Autumn 1961, on the road to Borujerd - پاییز ۱۳۴۰ در راه بروجرد | ۳۴ در کوره راه ها.... |
36 Dad worked for the city; beggar-dogs | 1962 - ۱۳۴۱ | ۳۶ بابا مأمور شهرداری بود |
49 Grey, shepherd-figs | Autumn 1982 - پاییز ۱۳۶۱ | ۴۹ خاکستری |
51 I've taken refuge under the safe canopy of a tree, and... sleep has carried me off. green-woodpecker | Summer 1987 - تابستان ۱۳۶۶ | ۵۱ به چتر درختی ایمن پناه برده ام و... مرا خواب در ربوده است |
52 I love you without the rain, barren-cloud | Summer 1987 - تابستان ۱۳۶۶ | ۵۲ تو را دوست دارم |
53 In the dark of the shore I sit and wait for you... drink-sea | November 1987 - ۱۳۶۶/۸/۳۰ | ۵۳ در تاریکی ساحل در انتظارت نشسته ام... |
54 This is the sound of horses' hooves, horse-hooves | Winter 1987 - زمستان ۱۳۶۶ | ۵۴ این صدای سم اسبان است |
56 My heart is heavy: there is no sun in your gaze, sunless-gaze | Winter 1987 - زمستان ۱۳۶۶ | ۵۶ دلم گرفته نگاه تو آفتابی نیست |
57 Hey... I love you, green-pond | Winter 1987 - زمستان ۱۳۶۶ | ۵۷ های... دوست دارمت |
58 Ah — those half-open eyes of yours, gray-kisses | 1988 - ۱۳۶۷ | ۵۸ آه از چشم های نیمه باز تو |
59 There is only one thing one-thing | 1988 - ۱۳۶۷ | ۵۹ تنها یک چیز را از تو |
60 I am in the shelter, shelter-wall | 1988 - ۱۳۶۷ | ۶۰ من در پناهگاهم |
61 In the distance between the sea and the forest jungle-refuge | 6/28/261988 - ۱۳۶۷/۲/۱۶ | ۶۱ در فاصله دریا و جنگل |
62 I said my poem to you — laughed-wept | 6/28/261988 - ۱۳۶۷/۹ | ۶۲ شعرم را برای تو گفتم... |
63 You go away on a short journey. snow-without-you | 6/28/261989 - زمستان ۱۳۶۷ | ۶۳ تو به سفری کوتاه میروی |
64 You are dreaming. dotar-player | 6/28/261989 - زمستان ۱۳۶۷ | ۶۴ خواب میبینی |
65 The war has ended... jungle-to-sea | 6/28/261989 - اسفند ۱۳۶۷ | ۶۵ جنگ تمام شد... |
66 Ah... lovers-breath | 6/28/261989 - ۱۳۶۸ | ۶۶ های... |
67 When the longing takes me, I think of you. drop-of-red | 6/28/261989 - ۱۳۶۸ | ۶۷ وقتی دلتنگم به تو میاندیشم |
68 Delirium after the war... war-delirium | 6/28/261989 - ۱۳۶۸ | ۶۸ هذیان بعد از جنگ... |
69 O you — that rain-freshened, dewy grace, desert-moonlight | 6/28/261989 - بهار ۱۳۶۸ | ۶۹ ای... آن پر طراوتِ بارانی |
These winds that blow, these leaves that creep, blowing-winds | Tehran 1960 - تهران ۱۳۳۹ | این بادها که می وزند این برگها که می خزند |
In the passing of the night fifty-moons | January 1972 - تهران دی ماه ۱۳۵۱ | در عبور شب |
You were the last sun on the roof's edge, half-ghazal | 1961 - ۱۳۴۰ | آفتاب لب بامی بودی یا طنین دل جامی بودی از دلت هیچ نگشتم آگه غزل نیمه تمامی بودی |
If the clouds allow, longest-shadow | 1960s - دهه ۱۳۴۰ | اگر ابرها بگذارند بلندترین سایه تو را |
When the crystal of the moon moon-crystal | Summer 1962, Tuyserkan - تویسرکان تابستان ۱۳۴۱ | وقتی بلور ماه |
The nightingale has no use for clouds nightingale-cloud | 2001 - ۱۳۸۰ | هوای ابر را بلبل نداره |
I love this surmise, oldest-song | Tehran 1966 - تهران ۱۳۴۵ | دوست دارم |
O... rain... you are raining... so that you bring back the smell of adobe that you have forgotten— pour, rain... rain-forgotten | Tehran, Autumn 1989 - تهران، پاییز ۱۳۶۸ | های... باران... تو می باری... |
For Maryam with-you | 1963 - ۱۳۴۲ | برای مریم |
dark-city
شهر تاریک است کوچه های خسته در هذیان خواب آلود می سوزد... چشم شهر از دود می سوزد. شهربانان آتشی افروخته با بوته های جهل آتشی که گفته اند... این نور جاوید است.... جاودانه آتش بیدار خورشید است.... .... دروغی را که باید کرد باور خنجر رنجی ست. جان از این معنا که ما با رنج می سازیم... می سوزد جز دل سنگین دژخیمان هر چه در آتش می اندازیم میسوزد. موسم خواری ست... موسمی که معنی فریاد آشوب است... غنچه ها می پژ مرد در سردی دلها و.... گل فریاد بر لبها نمی روید. موسم خواری ست... هر که بر لب قفل دارد دست هایش شاخ پرباری ست. شهر .... دشت تشنه را ماند آب میخواهد. شهربان پیر اما.... شهریان را خواب میخواهد ۱۳۴۷
The city is dark The tired streets in sleepy delirium Burns... The eyes of the city burn with smoke. The city guards have lit a fire With the bushes of ignorance The fire that they have said... This is the eternal light... The eternal fire is the awakened sun... .... Believe the lie that must be told The dagger of suffering. The soul, in the sense that We build with suffering... burns Except for the heavy hearts of our murderers Whatever we throw into the fire burns. It is the season of humiliation... A season that means the cry of chaos... The buds wither and die in the coldness of hearts And.... The flower of a cry does not grow on the lips. It is the season of humiliation... Whoever has a lock on his lips His hands are fruitful horns. The city.... has become a thirsty plain He wants water. The old mayor, but.... He wants the citizens to sleep 1347
The city is dark. Its weary alleys, in a drowsy delirium, are burning... the city's eye burns with smoke. The constables have kindled a fire out of the brushwood of ignorance — a fire they have called the everlasting light... "the eternal fire is the waking sun"... The lie one is forced to believe is a dagger of pain. The soul burns at this "meaning" we are made to build out of suffering; everything we throw on the fire burns — all but the stony hearts of the hangmen. It is the season of humiliation... a season that spells the cry of riot... Buds shrivel in the cold of hearts, and no flower-of-protest blooms on the lips. It is the season of humiliation... and whoever keeps his lips locked, his hands are a laden bough. The city has become a parched plain, it begs for water — but the old constable wants its people asleep. 1347
dried-spring
در ماسه های چشمه خشکیده خیال چون ریشه مانده ای و نمی رویی از زمین شاخی نمی کنی که دمی غنچه امید در قلب دور مانده از شادی م وا شود برگی نمی کنی که دمی سایه ای کند این دل از تیرهای جگرسوز آفتاب یک دم رها شود. این موی ریشه های تو چون مار زخم دار دیوانه وار میدود و می دواندم در شوره زار داغ تنم تاب می خورد آنگه به سوی ساغر می میکشاندم آنقدر میخورم کز هوش میروم ای ساقه امید مردم در انتظار نیش خدنگ جوانه ات از خاک شعله برکش و چون سالهای پیش سر کن ترانه ات ای اشکهای کوچک پرشادی بهار من بغض خاموشم مردم در انتظار بروجرد ۱۳۳۷
In the sands of the dried spring, the imagination is like a root and does not grow. You do not make a branch from the ground that will eventually blossom. A bud of hope in the heart that is far from happiness. You do not make a leaf that will eventually create a shadow. This heart is free from the burning rays of the sun. This hair of your roots Like a wounded snake I would run and run like crazy My body sways in the hot salt marsh Then I would pull it towards the ocean I would eat so much that I would lose consciousness O stem of hope People are waiting for the sting of the mongoose of your bud Rise a flame from the soil and, like in the past years Sing your song O small tears of spring joy I am a silent grudge, people are waiting Borojerd 1337
In the sands of imagination's dried-up spring you have stayed like a root and will not grow from the earth. You put out no branch on which, for an instant, a bud of hope might open in this heart kept far from joy; you put out no leaf to cast a moment's shade, so that this heart, from the liver-scorching arrows of the sun, might for one breath go free. This hair of your roots, like a wounded snake, runs wild and sets me running, writhing in the hot salt-flat of my body, then drags me toward the wine-cup — and I drink until I lose my senses. O stalk of hope: I died waiting for the arrow-sting of your sprouting. Draw up a flame from the soil and, as in years gone by, strike up your song. O little tears, brimming with the joy of spring — I am the silent sob; I died, waiting. Borujerd, 1337
گل های بادام
Almond Flowers
almond-flowers
به رویم در نیستی تو ز پهلویم نرستی تو چو غم در دل نشستی تو نمی دانم چه هستی تو. نه از آبی نه از خاکی نه از طوفان و کولاکی به دل آوای غمناکی نمی دانم چه هستی تو. به بام آسمان برفی درون قلب شنگرفی به چشم اشک و به لب حرفی نمی دانم چه هستی تو. تو چون گلهای بادامی شقایق های بر بامی طنینی از دل جامی نمیدانم چه هستی تو. تو ناقوس کلیسایی از آن مغرب مایی به هر قلبی یک آوایی نمی دانم چه هستی تو پرستوی بهار من اميد من قرار من ز خود راه فرار من نمیدانم چه هستی تو. به هر راهی تو پوینده ز هر دردی تو جوینده به هر لفظی تو گوینده نمیدانم چه هستی تو. به جز راهت نمی پویم به جز وصلت نمیجویم اگر چه فاش میگویم نمیدانم چه هستی تو. بروجرد ۱۳۳۸
You are not in front of me, you have not come to my side, you have sat in my heart like sorrow, I do not know what you are. Not from water, not from earth, not from storm and blizzard, in the heart of a sad voice, I do not know what you are. On the roof of the snowy sky, in the heart of a thorn, with tears in my eyes and words on my lips, I do not know what you are. You are like almond flowers, poppies on the roof, resounding from the heart of a cup, I do not know what you are. You are a church bell from our west. I don't know what you are with every heart, a single sound My spring swallow, my hope, my destiny, my escape from myself, I don't know what you are. You are the one who follows every path, you are the one who seeks every pain, you are the one who speaks every word, I don't know what you are. I don't follow except your path, I don't seek except union, even though I say it openly, I don't know what you are. Borujerd 1338
You are not there before my eyes, you did not grow from my own side, yet like grief you've settled in my heart — I do not know what you are. Not of water, not of earth, not of the storm or the blizzard; a mournful voice within the heart — I do not know what you are. Snow on the roof of the sky, vermilion deep in the heart, a tear in the eye, a word on the lip — I do not know what you are. You are like the almond blossoms, poppies along a rooftop, a ringing from the heart of a cup — I do not know what you are. You are a church bell out of that West of ours, a single voice in every heart — I do not know what you are. My swallow of spring, my hope, my one repose, my road of escape from myself — I do not know what you are. On every road, you are the one who strides; out of every sorrow, the one who searches; in every word, the one who speaks — I do not know what you are. I walk no road but yours, I seek nothing but your embrace, and though I say it plainly — I do not know what you are. Borujerd, 1338
city-smoke
از کنار ..دشت از جوار کوه.... از زلال آبی قدیم پرشکوه.... من به شهر دود آمدم.... من به شهر پر صدای بی سرود... نه... به شهر بی امید خسته خمود آمدم..... عمر می گذشت.... آه می وزید... مار خستگی... دست چیدن مرا.... چشم دیدن مرا... پای رفتن مرا به راه عشق می گزید... در چنین چم کبود... در چنین غروب غم.... در چنین خمار خسته خمود... وای اگر خیال تو نبود برق چشمه زلال تو نبود. وای اگر صدای تو نبود... راز تو نبود زخمه های ساز تو نبود بازوان باز تو نبود در شبان پر هراس شهر ... مرد خسته ای در آرزوی ماه بود زیر پای سایه های غم کوچه تو غرق آه بود... در غروب این ستاره ها.... در صدای زخمدار این مناره ها... در صدای دور در صدای حجم های آهنین بی سرود..... عمرها تباه بود. شهر پرده ای سیاه بود عشق روی تو چراغ راه بود.... شعله ای برای محو هر گناه بود... ۱۳۴۷
From the side of the plain From the side of the mountain... From the clear blue of the old, glorious... I came to the city of smoke... I came to the city full of noise without a song... No... I came to the city without hope, tired and hunched..... Life was passing by... It was sighing... The snake of fatigue... my hand-wringing... My eyes seeing... It was biting my feet on the path of love... In such a blue sky... in such a sunset of sadness... In such a drunkenness, tired and hunched... Wow, if it weren't for your imagination There wouldn't be the electricity of your clear spring. Wow, if it weren't for your voice... There wouldn't be your secret There wouldn't be your wounds There wouldn't be your open arms In the frightened shepherd of the city... A tired man was longing for the moon Under the shadows of sadness, your alley was drowning in sighs... In the sunset of these stars... In the wounded voice of these minarets... In the distant sound In the sound of songless iron volumes..... Life was ruined. The city was a black curtain Love on you was a beacon.... It was a flame to erase every sin... 1347
From beside the plain, from the flank of the mountain, from the clear, old, glorious blue, I came to the city of smoke... I came to the city loud and songless... no — to the hopeless city, weary and slumped... Life slid by... a sigh kept blowing... the snake of exhaustion bit my plucking hand, bit my seeing eye, bit the foot I set on the road of love... In such a livid dusk... such a sorrowing sunset... such a weary, slumped half-stupor — oh, were it not for the thought of you, the gleam of your clear spring; oh, were it not for your voice... your secret, the struck strings of your music, your open arms — through the city's terror-filled nights a tired man went longing for the moon, and under the shadows of grief your alley drowned in sighs... In the setting of these stars, in the wounded cry of these minarets, in the far-off sound, in the sound of songless iron hulks — lifetimes lay ruined. The city was a black curtain; the love of your face was the lamp of the road, a flame to burn away every sin. 1347
پرستوها به طاق آسمونند
Swallows in the Vault of the Sky
sky-swallows
افق ها سایه روشن گرم خونند نمی دونی که مرغان خیالت به طاق سینه ام با درد چونند ۱۳۳۹
The horizons are bright, warm shadows. Don't you know that the birds of your imagination are pecking in pain at the vault of my chest 1339
The horizons are a warm half-light of blood — don't you know how the birds of your memory beat in pain against the vault of my chest? 1339
drunk-waterfall
آن آبشار سرخوش و مستم که سال ها بر ماسه های گرم تنت اشک ریختم دیوانه وار تا که بمیرم به دامنت از دام برفهای سپیدم گریختم وقتی شراب شیشه خورشید می چکید برق تنم به تندی تیر نگاه بود وقتی نگاه آینه مهر میشکست امواج سینه ام به سپیدی ماه بود افیون بادهای سحر پیکر مرا بی تاب مینمود در آغوش بسترم هر شاخه میگرفت به بازی تن مرا هر برگ می گذشت به آسانی از سرم... در تلخی زمانه چو شور تو داشتم چون شهد مینمود مرا انتظار تو می سوختم از گرمی آغوش این خیال دریای من تو بودی و من آبشار تو اکنون که در برابر من موج میزنی از خواب پر فریب تو بیدار میشوم تو مست و شاد از نگه آسمان و من در ساحل خموش تو در شن فرو روم تابوت استخوانی سینه چو گور تنگ در هم فشرده لاشه سرد غرور من میگریم ای دریغ چرا نیستم باز... من برف دره ها و تو دریای دور من ۱۳۳۹
That happy and drunk waterfall that for years I shed tears on the warm sands of your body Like a madman Until I die in your lap I escaped from the trap of my white snow When the wine dripped from the glass of the sun The lightning of my body was as swift as a glance When the look of the mirror of the seal broke, the waves of my chest were as white as the moon, the opium of the dawn winds made my body impatient in the embrace of my bed, every branch took my body to play with Every leaf passed easily over my head... In the bitterness of time, I was as thirsty as you, as if you were nectar, I was waiting for you, I was burning with the warmth of the embrace of this dream of my sea, you were and I am your waterfall, now that you are waving in front of me, I wake up from your deceptive sleep, you are drunk and happy from the hold of the sky and I sink into the sand on your silent shore A coffin of bones, a chest like a narrow grave The cold carcass of my pride, compressed together We cry, oh my goodness Why am I not here again... I am the snow of the valleys and In the sea far away from me 1339
I am that giddy, drunken waterfall who for years wept onto the warm sands of your body, wild with madness, and to die at last in your lap fled the snare of my own white snows. When the wine dripped from the sun's glass the lightning of my body was quick as a darted glance. When the gaze in love's mirror shattered, the waves of my chest ran moon-white; the opium of the dawn winds left my body restless; in the embrace of my bed each branch took me up to play, and every leaf passed lightly over my head... In the bitterness of the times I held your fever like a passion; waiting for you tasted to me like honey; I burned in the warmth of this dream's embrace. You were my sea and I your waterfall. Now that you surge before me I wake from your beguiling sleep — you, drunk and glad with the sky's regard, and I, on your silent shore, sinking into the sand. The chest a coffin of bone, like a cramped grave, the cold carcass of my pride pressed flat within it. I weep — what a pity — why am I no longer... I, the snow of the valleys, and you, my far-off sea? 1339
wooden-horse
شهر دود شهر داد شهر بی داد شهر نیش شهر نوش شهر شب گرفته خاموش در شهر دود کودکی را دیدم نامش رستم بود خسته و سوار بر اسب چوبین شکسته می خواند من میترسم... می ترسم... می ترسم چوب گزینم کو... و مادرش صدا میزد های رستم درست را بخوان رستم درس خواند رستم مرد شد... و از اسب چوبینش میزی ساختند. تهران ۱۳۴۰
City of Smoke City of Dad City of Nod City of Nish City of Drink City of Silence in the Night In the City of Smoke I saw a child His name was Rostam Tired and riding a broken wooden horse He was singing I am afraid... I am afraid... I am afraid I will choose a stick... And his mother was calling Hey Rostam, sing the right song Rostam studied Rostam became a man... And they made a table out of his wooden horse. Tehran 1961
City of smoke, city of justice, city of injustice, city of the sting, city of the sweet draught, city gone silent, taken by night. In the city of smoke I saw a child whose name was Rostam, tired, astride a broken wooden horse, and he was singing: I'm afraid... afraid... afraid... where is my whittled stick...? And his mother kept calling, Rostam, sing it right — so Rostam learned his lesson, Rostam became a man... and out of his wooden horse they built a desk. Tehran, 1340
road-peasant
در کوره راه ها.... آبی خاکستری سیاه پیکر دهقانی است با چوبدست بلندش سپید سیاه خرش را میگویم با خرواری از خارهای باران زده سیاه سیاه بختش را میگویم که همچون سایه از کنار پاهایش روییده است. پاییز ۱۳۴۰ در راه بروجرد
In the furnace of the roads.... Blue, gray, black The figure of a peasant with his long staff White, black I speak of the bull With a heap of thorns, rain-swept Black, black I speak of his luck That, like a shadow has grown from his feet. Autumn 1340 on the road to Borujerd
On the rough kiln-hot tracks — blue, grey, black — stands the figure of a peasant with his long staff, white and black: I mean his donkey, loaded down with a ton of rain-beaten thorns, black, black: I mean his fortune, which, like a shadow, has grown up out of the sides of his feet. Autumn 1340, on the road to Borujerd
beggar-dogs
بابا مأمور شهرداری بود پا با سنگها را میکشت یک روز آفتابی بابا با یک تکه گوشت زهر آلود در تعقیب سگی بود... بچه گداها بازی میکردند بچه گداها با سگ بازی میکردند سگ گوشت را نخورد بچه گداها خوردند. بچه گداها مردند. بابا دید بابا خندید بابا قاتل بود با با گوشت خورد بابا مرد... من نصف حقوق بابا را از شهرداری میگرفتم من درس خواندم من شهردار شدم من سگ ها را نمی کشم من سگ ها را عقیم میکنم شاید بچه گداها عقیم شوند. نشریه نامه دانشجو دانشگاه تهران (۱۳۴۱)
Dad was a municipal official He used to beat stones One sunny day Dad He was chasing a dog with a piece of poisoned meat... The beggar children were playing The beggar children were playing with the dog The dog did not eat the meat The beggar children did. The beggar children died. Dad saw Dad laughed Dad was a murderer He ate the meat Dad died... I used to get half of Dad's salary from the municipality I studied I became the mayor I do not kill dogs I sterilize dogs Maybe the beggar children will be sterilized. Tehran University Student's Newsletter (1962)
Dad worked for the city; he was the one who killed the dogs. One sunny day Dad went out after a stray with a scrap of poisoned meat... The beggar children were playing, the beggar children were playing with the dog. The dog wouldn't eat the meat. The beggar children ate it. The beggar children died. Dad saw. Dad laughed. Dad was a murderer. Dad ate the meat. Dad died... I drew half of Dad's wages from the city. I studied. I became mayor. I don't kill the dogs — I sterilize the dogs. Maybe the beggar children will be sterilized too. Tehran University Student Newsletter, 1341
shepherd-figs
خاکستری خاکستری خاکستری مه باران صبح نگاه خاطره ابر در من ترانه ای نبود تو خواندی در من آینه ای نبود تو دیدی ریشه ای بودم در خواب خاکهای متبرک بی باران در نگاه تو سبز شدم برقی از چشمانت برخاست نگاهم بارانی شد گونه هایت خیس باران چشم هایت آفتابی گرگ ها میزایند بره ها را دریابیم... تو با چشمانت مرا بنواز چوبدست چوپانیم سلاحی کارگر خواهد شد بعد از جنگ با چوبدستم انجیرهای تازه را برای تو خواهم چید با تو خواهم ماند با تو خواهم خواند و تو را در بهت آفتابیت خواهم بوسید اگر ابرها بگذارند... پاییز ۱۳۶۱
gray gray gray morning rain fog cloud memory look There was no song in me, you sang it. There was no mirror in me, you saw. I was a root in the dream of the blessed soil. I became green in your eyes without rain. A spark came from your eyes. My eyes became cloudy Your cheeks are wet with rain Your eyes are sunny The wolves are coming Let's find the lambs... You play with me with your eyes. Our shepherd's staff will become a useful weapon. after the war I pluck fresh figs with my stick. I will pick for you I will stay with you I will read with you And you are in the sun's glare. i will kiss If the clouds leave... Autumn 1361
Grey, grey, grey: the morning's rain-mist, the gaze, the cloud's remembering. There was no song in me — you sang it. There was no mirror in me — you saw. I was a root asleep in the blessed soil; with no rain, I greened in your gaze. A lightning lifted from your eyes and my own gaze turned to rain. Your cheeks wet with rain, your eyes full of sun. The wolves are whelping — let us gather in the lambs... Play me with your eyes. My shepherd's staff will turn into a working weapon. After the war, with that same staff I'll pick fresh figs for you, I'll stay with you, I'll sing with you, and I'll kiss you in your sunlit daze — if the clouds will let me... Autumn 1361
green-woodpecker
به چتر درختی ایمن پناه برده ام و... مرا خواب در ربوده است از صدای دور دارکوبی بیدار میشوم خش خشی میشنوم تو از درختان انبوه به دریا می روی جنگل بستری ست از برگهای رنگین با صدای انفجاری... از جا میپرم... جنگل پر از همهمه میشود. هواپیماها میرند. تو هیچ نمی ترسی... به آغوش من پناه می آوری بوی برگها... بوی خاک... طعم دريا... و عطر نفس های تو... پرندگان جنگل خاموش اند.... آفتاب رفته است.... و من با پر سبز دارکوبی بر پشت چشمان بسته ات سایه میزنم تابستان ۱۳۶۶
I have taken refuge in the safe shade of a tree and... sleep has taken hold of me. I wake up to the distant sound of knocking. I hear rustling. You are from the thick trees You go to the sea The forest is a bed of colorful leaves. With an explosive sound... I jump up... The forest is filled with noise. Planes go. You are not afraid of anything... You take refuge in my arms The smell of leaves... the smell of soil... The taste of the sea... and the scent of your breath... The birds of the forest are silent. The sun has gone... And I, with a green feather, am a woodpecker. I cast a shadow behind your closed eyes. Summer 1366
I've taken refuge under the safe canopy of a tree, and... sleep has carried me off. I wake to the far knocking of a woodpecker, I hear a rustling: you, through the crowded trees, are walking down to the sea. The forest is a bed of colored leaves. At the sound of an explosion... I spring up... the forest fills with clamor. The planes pass over. You are not afraid at all — you take shelter in my arms. The smell of leaves... the smell of earth... the taste of the sea... and the scent of your breathing... The birds of the forest have fallen silent... the sun has gone... and I, with a woodpecker's green feather, draw a soft shade across your closed eyes. Summer 1366
barren-cloud
تو را دوست دارم بی باران و باران را دوست دارم با تو... های... با من باش تا ابر عقیم بر سرزمین گرفتار ببارد و چوبدست خشک دژخیم در خاک شب زده سبز شود... با من باش تا هر تیرک مرگ آور گیاه برگ آوری شود و بر اوج مناره ها که کلاغان لانه کرده اند پرستوها زمزمه کنند با من باش تا بجای گریز از بمبها در پناهگاه های بی پناه به چتر درختی ایمن از باران پناه بریم... های... تو را دوست دارم... تابستان ۱۳۶۶
i love you no rain And I like the rain with you Hey... stay with me Until the barren cloud falls on the troubled land And the dry, deadly stick To grow in the night-stricken soil... be with me to every deadly pole The plant should be leafed And on the top of the minarets that Crows have nested The swallows whisper. be with me Instead of running away from bombs In homeless shelters Under the umbrella of a tree, safe from the rain Let's take refuge... Hey... I love you... Summer 1366
I love you without the rain, and I love the rain with you... Hey — stay with me, so the barren cloud may break over this captive land, and the hangman's dry staff go green in the night-stricken soil... Stay with me, so every death-dealing stake becomes a leafing plant, and high on the minarets where the crows have nested the swallows may murmur. Stay with me, so that instead of fleeing the bombs into shelters that shelter no one, we take refuge under the safe canopy of a tree, safe from the rain... Hey... I love you... Summer 1366
drink-sea
در تاریکی ساحل در انتظارت نشسته ام... با زمزمه دریا چشمانم را میبندم و چون میگشایم دو ستاره گرم بر گونه هایم مینشیند تو در بازوان بسته ام روییده ای... چشمانت را میبندی و لبانت را میگشایی... های... دریا را ... دریا را ... دریا را مینوشم... ۱۳۶۶/۸/۳۰
I am waiting for you in the darkness of the beach... I close my eyes to the whisper of the sea. And when we open Two warm stars sit on my cheeks. You grew up in my closed arms... You close your eyes And you open your lips... Hai... the sea... the sea... I drink the sea... 1366/8/30
In the dark of the shore I sit and wait for you... to the murmur of the sea I close my eyes, and when I open them two warm stars come to rest on my cheeks. You have grown up inside my folded arms... you close your eyes and open your lips... Hey... the sea... the sea... I drink the sea... 1366/8/30
horse-hooves
این صدای سم اسبان است با رپ رپه طبل ها ... تو را در برکه های هذیانی تبهایم بر اسب میبینم اسب می ماند. سم می کوبد... سر می ساید تو خاموشی... و من لبهایم را به بلندترین فریاد گشوده ام. نسیم از دریا به جنگل در گذار است تو میشنوی که میگویم دوستت دارم... نگاهت آفتابی میشود. سایه اسب بر ساحل مینشیند اسب میرمد رعد در بال باد در پاها... هنوز لبانم به بلندترین فریاد گشوده است فریاد در جنگل میپیچد بمان... جنگ تمام خواهد شد.... پرندگان مانده اند... بمان... دوستت دارم... تو... می روی... و... من لحظه دیشب در سر لحظه امشب در دل به پناهگاه بر می گردم... زمستان ۱۳۶۶
This is the sound of horses' hoofs With the rap of the drums... I will bathe you in delirious pools. I see on a horse The horse stays. The hoof knocks... head rubs You are silent... And I my lips I have opened the loudest cry. The breeze is passing from the sea to the forest. You hear me say. I love you... Your gaze becomes sunny. The shadow of a horse sits on the shore. The horse dies Thunder in the wings Wind in the legs... My lips are still open to the loudest scream. A scream echoes through the forest stay... The war will end. The birds have stayed... Stay... I love you... you... go... And... I was thinking about it last night. Tonight's moment in the heart I'm going back to the shelter... Winter 1366
This is the sound of horses' hooves, with the rat-a-tat of drums... In the delirious pools of my fever I see you on horseback. The horse halts. A hoof pounds... it rubs its head. You are silent... and I have opened my lips in the loudest cry. The breeze is crossing from the sea to the forest. You hear me saying I love you... and your gaze turns sunny. The horse's shadow settles on the shore. The horse bolts — thunder in its wings, wind in its legs... Still my lips are parted in the loudest cry, the cry goes winding through the forest: Stay... the war will end... the birds have stayed... stay... I love you... You... are leaving... and I — last night's moment in my head, tonight's in my heart — turn back to the shelter... Winter 1366
sunless-gaze
دلم گرفته نگاه تو آفتابی نیست به بیکران کبودت زلال آبی نیست ز سردی نگهت قامت دلم افسرد قیامتی است در آن دل که صبر و تابی نیست به آب دیده بشویم غبار چشمانت در این زمانه که در برگِ گل گلابی نیست نگاه میرمد از چشم من به گیسویت اسیر تشنه به ظلمات و برق آبی نیست دلیر باش و شبی جرئت گناهی کن در این دو روزه اگر فرصت ثوابی نیست بنوش ورنه چو نوبت به غم رسد بینی درون ساغر شوقت نم شرابی نیست بیا به گرمی محجوب عشق دلبندیم به دشت شب زده امید آفتابی نیست زمستان ۱۳۶۶
I'm saddened by your lack of sunshine. Your infinite blueness is not as clear as blue. My heart is depressed by the coldness of your posture. There is a resurrection in that heart where there is no patience or endurance. Let's be seen in the water, the dust in your eyes At this time, when there is no pear in the leaf of the flower My eyes wander to your hair, a captive thirsty for darkness and no blue lightning. Be brave and dare to sin one night. If there is no opportunity for reward in these two days, Drink, otherwise when the time comes for sadness, your nose in the cup of longing is not a drop of wine. Come, let us fall in love with the unobstructed warmth of love. There is no sunny hope in the night-stricken plain. Winter 1366
My heart is heavy: there is no sun in your gaze, in your boundless blue, no clear blue water runs. The cold of your look has withered my heart's whole stature — a judgment-day in that heart, with no patience, no endurance left. Let me wash the dust from your eyes with the water of mine, in this age when there's no rosewater left in the petal. My gaze bolts from my eye toward your hair, a thirsting captive in the dark — and there is no blue lightning. Be brave: for one night dare a single sin, if in these two short days there's no chance at merit. Drink — or when your turn at grief comes round, you'll find not a drop of wine in the cup of your own longing. Come, let us be tender lovers in the bashful warmth of love — on this night-stricken plain there is no hope of sun. Winter 1366
green-pond
های... دوست دارمت دوست دارمت... با عبور این صدا از کویر حنجرم در نگاه تو برکه کبود سبز میشود... زمستان ۱۳۶۶
Hey... I love you I love you... By passing this sound from Hanjarm desert in your eyes Blue Pond It turns green... Winter 1366
Hey... I love you, I love you... and as this sound crosses the desert of my throat, in your gaze the dark-blue pond turns green... Winter 1366
gray-kisses
آه از چشم های نیمه باز تو بعد از بلندترین بوسه های خاکستری باران.... ۱۳۶۷
Oh, your half-open eyes. After the tallest gray rain kisses 1367
Ah — those half-open eyes of yours, after the longest grey kisses of the rain... 1367
one-thing
تنها یک چیز را از تو بیشتر دوست دارم این که... تو را دوست دارم... ۱۳۶۷
Only one thing from you I like more That... I love you... 1367
There is only one thing I love more than you: that... I love you... 1367
shelter-wall
من در پناهگاهم تو دور از من به تو می اندیشم شعری در من نطفه میبندد شعرم را به دیوار پناهگاه مینویسم و در فاصله دو انفجار به دیدار تو میشتابم در گذار از جنگل به دریا هوا مه آلود است و طعم گونه هایت همچون همهمه دریاست در نفسی بلند در شانه هایت میخوانم تو را دوست دارم بی باران و باران را دوست دارم با تو و تو را دوست دارم و باران را دوست دارم و فاصله دو بمب را دوست دارم های... بیا با یاد سهراب همه مرغابی های وحشت زده را بشمریم... ۱۳۶۷
I am in the shelter you are far from me I think of you A poem is sprouting in me. I write my poetry on the wall of the shelter. And within two explosions I am rushing to meet you. In the transition from the forest to the sea The weather is foggy And the taste of your cheeks It is like the roar of the sea in a long breath. I sing on your shoulders. I love you without rain And I love the rain with you. and i love you And I like the rain And I like the distance between the two bombs. Hey... come with Sohrab's memory Let's count all the scared ducks... 1367
I am in the shelter, you, far from me. I think of you, and a poem takes seed in me. I write my poem on the shelter wall, and in the gap between two blasts I rush to meet you. On the passage from forest to sea the air hangs misty, and the taste of your cheeks is like the sea's murmur drawn out in one long breath. On your shoulders I sing: I love you without the rain, and I love the rain with you, and I love you, and I love the rain, and I love the gap between two bombs. Hey — come, in memory of Sohrab, let us count all the terrified ducks... 1367
jungle-refuge
در فاصله دریا و جنگل زنی را دوست دارم... در هر بمباران به جنگل پناه میبرم تا در آغوشش... به دریا بیاندیشم... اصفهان ۱۳۶۷/۲/۱۶
In the distance between the sea and the jungle There is a woman I love... During every bombardment, I take refuge in the jungle So that in her embrace... I can think of the sea... Isfahan 1367/2/16
In the gap between sea and forest lives a woman I love... Each time the bombs come, I flee into the forest — so that, held in her arms, I can think of the sea... Isfahan, 1367/2/16
In the distance between the sea and the forest there is a woman I love... At every bombardment I take refuge in the forest, so that, in her arms, I may think of the sea... — Isfahan, 1367/2/16
جنگل (jangal) is rendered "forest" rather than "jungle": Jafari's recurring war-poem image is the wooded Caspian littoral, a place of refuge between the mountains and the sea. The same sea/forest pairing returns in the page-65 poem ("still the forest is bound to the sea"). The dateline places this in Isfahan, spring 1367 (May 1988), in the closing months of the Iran–Iraq war.
laughed-wept
شعرم را برای تو گفتم... خندیدی... با دیگری خواندم... گریست... ۱۳۶۷/۹
I recited my poem for you... You laughed... I read it with another... They wept... 1367/9
I spoke my poem for you... you laughed... I read it to another... she wept... 1367/9
I said my poem to you — you laughed. I read it to another — she wept. — 1367/9
The contrast turns on a single verb: گریست ("wept," third-person singular) — it is the other listener, not the poet, who weeps. So the poem you laughed at, read aloud to someone else, drew tears. Four lines, two reactions, and the whole distance between them.
snow-without-you
تو به سفری کوتاه میروی من از کوچه بی تو... من از خانه بی تو... میگذرم... من بی تو میگذرم... برف میبارد... برف بی تو میبارد... برف بر گونههایم در اشک میبارد... من در برف بی تو میگذرم... کوچه خاموش است... خانه خاموش است... من بی حرف در برف میگذرم... زمستان ۱۳۶۷
You go on a short journey I pass through the alley without you... I pass through the house without you... I pass without you... It is snowing... It snows without you... Snow falls on my cheeks in tears... I pass in the snow without you... The alley is silent... The house is silent... I pass wordlessly in the snow... Winter 1367
You leave on a short journey. I — without you — through the alley... without you — through the house... I pass... Without you, I pass... Snow is falling... the snow falls without you... snow falls on my cheeks, falls into tears... Without you, I pass through the snow... The alley is silent... the house is silent... wordless, I pass through the snow... Winter 1367
You go away on a short journey. I pass through the alley without you... through the house without you... I pass, without you... Snow is falling... the snow falls without you... snow falls on my cheeks and dissolves into tears... I pass through the snow without you... The alley has gone quiet... the house has gone quiet... and wordless, I pass through the snow... — Winter 1367
The poem runs on a single repeated verb, میگذرم ("I pass / I pass through"), and the refrain بی تو ("without you"). "برف بر گونههایم در اشک میبارد" is literally "snow falls on my cheeks into tears" — the snow melting on a warm face becomes weeping; I rendered it "snow falls on my cheeks and dissolves into tears." خاموش is both "silent" and "extinguished," so the hushed alley and house are also, faintly, snuffed out.
dotar-player
خواب میبینی تو دوتاری هستی من نوازنده بیصبر و قراری هستم. دشت ارژن خاموش آتشی بر جانم میزنم میخوانم میپری از خواب مانده بر پیکر تو نقش انگشتانم. زمستان ۱۳۶۷
You are dreaming You are a dotar (a two-stringed instrument) I am a restless and impatient player. Dasht-e Arjan is silent A fire upon my soul I play, I sing You wake from your sleep Left upon your body The imprint of my fingers. Winter 1367
You are dreaming. You are a dotar — and I, the player, restless and without rest. The plain of Arjan, silent. A fire upon my soul. I strike the strings, I sing... You start awake — and on your body remains the print of my fingers. Winter 1367
You are dreaming. You are a dotar, and I, your player — restless, without rest. The Arjan plain lies silent, a fire laid upon my soul. I strike the strings, I sing. You startle awake: left upon your body, the print of my fingers. — Winter 1367
The whole poem is one musical conceit: the beloved is a دوتار (dotar, a two-stringed long-necked lute), the poet the نوازنده (player) who can find no rest. میزنم is "I play / I strike [the strings]" — and to play this instrument is to touch her body, so the fingers that worked the strings leave their mark when she wakes. دشت ارژن (Dasht-e Arjan) is a plain and seasonal wetland west of Shiraz, in Fars — its stillness sets the hush the music breaks.
jungle-to-sea
جنگ تمام شد... و... تو ادامه داری... و جنگل هنوز پایبند دریاست... و من تو را دوست دارم... که هر روز خواهش محجوب جنگل را برهنه، به دریا میگویی... اسفند ۱۳۶۷
The war ended... And... you continue... And the jungle is still bound to the sea... And I love you... because Every day You nakedly tell The modest desire of the jungle To the sea... Esfand 1367
The war is over... and... you go on... and the forest is still bound to the sea... and I love you... because every day the forest's bashful longing you speak — naked — to the sea... Esfand 1367
The war has ended... and... you go on... and still the forest is bound to the sea... and I love you... because, every day, the bashful longing of the forest you tell — naked — to the sea... — Esfand 1367
Companion to the page-61 poem: the sea/forest pair returns, now as a figure for the lovers. پایبند is "bound, pledged, faithful to." خواهش محجوب is the "bashful / modest desire" of the forest, which the beloved speaks برهنه (nakedly, openly) to the sea — she is the one who says aloud, without shame, the longing the forest cannot. Esfand is the last month of the Persian year (Feb–Mar 1989); the Iran–Iraq ceasefire had taken hold the previous summer, so "the war has ended" is literal as well as figurative.
lovers-breath
های... جنگ... جانم را... که در فاصله... نفسهای عاشقانه شکل میگیرد...؟... ۱۳۶۸
Alas... War... My soul... Which in the space... Of a lover's breaths takes shape...?... 1368
Ah... war... my soul — which, in the space between... loving breaths, takes shape...?... 1368
Ah... war... my soul — that takes its shape in the space between a lover's breaths...?... — 1368
A fragment, and deliberately broken — the ellipses and the trailing "...؟..." leave the grammar unfinished. جانم را carries an object-marker (را) with no settled verb, so the line hangs: "my soul —" as something done to, or asked after. I kept the suspension rather than resolving it into a clean sentence. فاصله ("distance, gap, interval") is the same word that opens the page-61 poem; here the gap is between two breaths.
drop-of-red
وقتی دلتنگم به تو میاندیشم یاد تو مربعیست محو و لرزان در زمینه خاکستری روشن در این مربعها من با بهم زدن پلکهایم گذشته را نقاشی میکنم. بین من و تو غبار و دیوار است به سحر این مربعها من از دیوارها میگذرم در رسیدن به تو تنها راه گذشتن است باید چراغ رنگ بدست بگیرم و در خاکستریهایم به دنبال تو بگردم ای کاش میتوانستم یک قطره بیشتر با سرخ نقاشی کنم... تهران ۱۳۶۸
When I am homesick, I think of you The memory of you is a faded, trembling square On a light gray background In these squares I By blinking my eyelids Paint the past. Between you and me There is dust and a wall By the magic of these squares I pass through the walls In reaching you The only way is to pass I must take up the lantern of color And search for you in my grays I wish I could Paint one drop more With red... Tehran 1368
When I am heartsick I think of you. Your memory is a square, faded and trembling on a ground of pale grey. Within these squares I — by the closing of my eyelids — paint the past. Between you and me stand dust and a wall. By the magic of these squares I pass through the walls. To reach you, the only way is to pass through. I must take the lamp of color in my hand and search for you among my greys. If only I could paint one drop more in red... Tehran 1368
When the longing takes me, I think of you. The memory of you is a square, blurred and trembling against a ground of pale grey. Inside these squares I — with the shutting of my eyelids — paint the past. Between you and me there is dust, and a wall. By the magic of these squares I pass through the walls; to reach you, the only road is through. I must take up the lamp of colour and go looking for you in my greys. If only I could lay down one more drop of red... — Tehran, 1368
A painter's poem — Jafari was a painter as well as a poet, and it shows: memory as a blurred square on a grey ground, the eyelids' blink as a brushstroke, grief held in a palette drained to grey, with red the one withheld colour of life and love. چراغ رنگ is literally "the lamp/lantern of colour"; the machine pass already reached for "lantern," which sits oddly close to this collection's own name for the working-draft layer, so the finished line keeps "lamp." سحر here is سِحر (magic, enchantment), not سحَر (dawn).
war-delirium
هذیان بعد از جنگ... اگر ابرها خاکستری نبودند باران رنگ دیگری داشت و اشکهای تو سبز کم رنگ بودند. رنگ جنگ در آه میماند در نگاه میماند من نفرت از جنگ را در چشمها دیدهام و نفرت از صلح را در دندانها اگر ابرها خاکستری نبودند باران رنگ دیگری داشت میدانم چشمهایت در مهتاب زیباترند اما... باید به پناهگاه برگردیم تهران ۱۳۶۸
Delirium after war... If the clouds were not gray The rain would have another color And your tears Would be pale green. The color of war remains in a sigh, remains in a gaze I have seen the hatred of war in eyes And the hatred of peace in teeth If the clouds were not gray The rain would have another color I know your eyes are more beautiful in the moonlight But... We must return to the shelter Tehran 1368
Delirium after the war... If the clouds were not grey the rain would wear another colour and your tears would be a pale green. The colour of war lingers in a sigh, lingers in a gaze. I have seen the hatred of war in people's eyes, and the hatred of peace in their teeth. If the clouds were not grey the rain would wear another colour. I know your eyes are lovelier in the moonlight, but... we must go back to the shelter. Tehran 1368
Delirium after the war... If the clouds were not grey, the rain would take another colour, and your tears would be a faint green. The colour of war stays in a sigh, stays in a gaze. I have seen the hatred of war in their eyes, and the hatred of peace in their teeth. If the clouds were not grey, the rain would take another colour. I know your eyes are more beautiful in the moonlight — but... we have to go back to the shelter. — Tehran, 1368
هذیان is the raving of fever or shell-shock — "delirium." The sharpest line is the symmetry of نفرت از جنگ ... و نفرت از صلح: hatred of war seen in the eyes, hatred of peace bared in the teeth — a people sickened by war yet unable to be at peace. The colour logic (grey cloud → grey rain → drained tears) is the same drained palette as the page-67 painter's poem; here the longed-for beauty of the moonlit face is cut short by the return to the bomb-shelter (پناهگاه), the same shelter as the page-60 poem.
desert-moonlight
ای... آن پر طراوتِ بارانی مهتابِ بیدریغِ بیابانی چون از سفر به چشمِ تو برگردم با شعلههای آتشِ پنهانی هر برگ در نگاهِ تَرَم باغیست هر غنچه شهرِ شادِ چراغانی. بهار ۱۳۶۸
Oh... that rainy freshness The unsparing moonlight of the desert When I return from my journey to your eyes With the flames of a hidden fire Every leaf in my wet gaze is a garden Every bud a joyous, illuminated city. Spring 1368
O you — that rain-fresh, dew-bright thing, the desert's unstinting moonlight — when I come back from my journey to your eyes with the flames of a hidden fire, each leaf, in my wet gaze, is a garden, each bud a glad city strung with lights. Spring 1368
O you — that rain-freshened, dewy grace, the desert's unstinting moonlit face: when I come home from the journey to your eyes bearing the flames of a hidden fire, every leaf in my brimming gaze is a garden, every bud a glad city ablaze with light. — Spring 1368
The only formally classical piece in this group: a rhymed, metrical fragment in the manner of a ghazal, the line-ends chiming بارانی / بیابانی / پنهانی / چراغانی (-âni). The finished English reaches for a little of that music (grace / face) without forcing the full mono-rhyme. چراغانی is the festival lighting-up of a city — lamps strung for celebration — so the closing bud opens like a town lit for a feast. نگاهِ تَر, "the wet/moist gaze," is a gaze brimming to tears with feeling, not with grief.
blowing-winds
این بادها که می وزند این برگها که می خزند این بوی نم کشیده دیوارهای باغ این پیچ و تاب مضطرب بالهای زاغ این عطر نیم خفته که در شیشه فضا از لاشه های وحشی باران چکیده است این بادهای مست وقتی که می وزند با شدتی که سینه گنجشک میزند با سرعتی که سایه یک عنکبوت کور بر سقف خانه ام شبح تار میتند دردی درون سینه من تاب میخورد یک درد ناشناس از سالهای دور با جانم آشناست. این بادها که می وزند این برگها که می خزند تهران ۱۳۳۹
These winds that blow, these leaves that crawl This damp smell of the garden walls This anxious twist of the raven's wings, this half-asleep perfume that has dripped from the wild carcasses of the rain in the glass of space These drunken winds When they blow With the intensity of a sparrow's chest With the speed of a blind spider's shadow A shadow looms on the roof of my house A pain swings inside my chest An unknown pain is familiar to my soul from distant years. These winds that blow, these leaves that crawl Tehran 1339
These winds that blow, these leaves that creep, this damp smell off the garden walls, this anxious writhing of the rook's wings, this half-sleeping scent that, in the glass of the air, has dripped from the wild carcasses of the rain — these drunken winds, when they blow, with the force of a sparrow's beating breast, with the speed at which a blind spider's shadow spins a dim phantom on my roof — a pain turns over inside my chest: an unknown ache, from far-off years, that my soul already knows. These winds that blow, these leaves that creep. Tehran 1339
fifty-moons
در عبور شب گرد گیسوی تو میگردم مست از بوی تو می گردم لب به گوش تو میکنم نجوا این منم پنجاه داغ تر از تب سردتر از آه خنده ات با اشک من همراه... چند مهتاب دگر ؟ چند قرص ماه؟ تهران دی ماه ۱۳۵۱
In the night, I wander around your hair I wander drunk on your scent I whisper in your ear This is me, fifty Hotter than fever Colder than a sigh Your laughter is accompanied by my tears... How many more moons? How many moons? Tehran, January 1972
In the passing of the night I circle round your hair, I wander drunk on your scent, I set my lips to your ear and whisper: here I am, fifty — hotter than fever, colder than a sigh, your laughter keeping company with my tears... How many more moonlit nights? How many full moons left? Tehran, Dey 1351
half-ghazal
آفتاب لب بامی بودی یا طنین دل جامی بودی از دلت هیچ نگشتم آگه غزل نیمه تمامی بودی ۱۳۴۰
Were you the sun on the roof or the echo of the heart in a cup? I didn't say anything from your heart, but you were a half-finished ghazal. 1340
You were the last sun on the roof's edge, or the ringing deep in a cup — I never learned a thing of your heart: you were a ghazal left half-finished. 1340
longest-shadow
اگر ابرها بگذارند بلندترین سایه تو را چون باغچه ای گل خواهم ..کاشت و.... فصل نورت را .... آیه آیه... بر حجم تاریکی خواهم نشاند.... اگر ابرها بگذارند کوتاه ترین سایه مردی را که حاکم است و ظلم میکند با تیر به زمین خواهم دوخت آن گاه... بلندترین سایه تو را که خوبی... که ساده ای چون باغچه ای گل خواهم کاشت .... مهربانی را با خون آب خواهم داد. اگر ابرها بگذارند. دهه ۱۳۴۰
If the clouds leave your longest shadow I will plant flowers like a garden And.... the season of your light.... verse by verse... I will plant it on the volume of darkness.... If the clouds leave I will nail the shortest shadow of a man who rules and oppresses to the ground with an arrow Then... Your longest shadow, who is good... who is simple I will plant flowers like a garden ... I will water kindness with blood. If the clouds leave. 1960s
If the clouds allow, your longest shadow I'll plant like a bed of flowers, and your season of light, verse by verse, I'll set against the bulk of the darkness... If the clouds allow, the shortest shadow of the man who rules and tyrannizes I'll pin to the ground with an arrow. Then... your longest shadow — you who are good, who are simple — I'll plant like a bed of flowers... I'll water kindness with blood. If the clouds allow. 1340s
moon-crystal
وقتی بلور ماه در چشمه ها شکست.... وقتی شب سیاه.... در غارها و سایه گهارها نشست.... وقتی که مرغ شب... ابریشم نوای دل آویز خویش را .... بر پیله طلایی صدها ستاره بست من از نشیب دره بسوی تو میدوم با اسب راهوار... لرزان و بی قرار دیوانه وار می پرم از سنگچین رود. تا در کنار چشمه نمانی به انتظار تویسرکان تابستان ۱۳۴۱ برای مریم
When the moon crystal broke in the springs.... When the black night.... Sat in the caves and shadows of the caves.... When the night bird... The silk of its heart-rending song.... It tied hundreds of stars to the golden cocoon I run towards you from the valley slope On a walking horse... Shaking and restless I jump like a madman from the river's cobblestones. So that you don't stay by the spring, waiting Twiserkan, summer 1341 For Maryam
When the crystal of the moon shattered in the springs... when the black night settled into the caves and their shadowed hollows... when the bird of night bound the silk of its beguiling song to the golden cocoon of a hundred stars — I come running to you down the valley's slope on a swift-paced horse, trembling, unable to rest, leaping like a madman over the river's stepping-stones, so you won't be left waiting by the spring. Tuyserkan, summer 1341 For Maryam
nightingale-cloud
هوای ابر را بلبل نداره به جز شوق گل و سنبل نداره نمیدونه اگه بارون نباره گل پژمرده بوی گل نداره ۱۳۸۰
The nightingale has no longing for the cloud - only desire for the rose and hyacinth. It doesn't know: if the rain doesn't fall, the wilted flower has no flower's scent... 1380
The nightingale has no use for clouds just the rose and hyacinth. It doesn't know: if the rain won't fall, the wilted flower has no scent...
oldest-song
دوست دارم این گمان این سرود سالخورد جاودان این سرشته فرشته های آسمان این یقین این کهن ترین ترانه زمین مثل رنگ ابر مثل بوی خاک مثل طعم اشک مثل خواب کوه ها.... همیشگی ست... تهران ۱۳۴۵
I love This thought This song of eternal aging This nature of the angels of heaven This certainty This oldest song of the earth Like the color of the clouds Like the smell of the soil Like the taste of tears Like the sleep of the mountains.... It is eternal... Tehran 1966
I love this surmise, this aged, undying anthem, this thing kneaded from the angels of the sky, this certainty, this oldest song of the earth. Like the color of cloud, like the smell of soil, like the taste of tears, like the sleep of mountains... it goes on forever... Tehran 1345
rain-forgotten
های... باران... تو می باری... تا بوی کاهگل را که فراموش کرده ای به خاطر آوری باران ببار... زنی را که دوست دارم سفر می کند و چون برگردد مرا از خاطر برده است. تهران، پاییز ۱۳۶۸
Hey... rain... you are raining... to remind you of the smell of straw that you have forgotten . Rain... the woman I love is traveling and when she returns she has forgotten me. Tehran, Autumn 1989
O... rain... you are raining... so that you bring back the smell of adobe that you have forgotten— pour, rain... The woman I love is traveling, and when she returns she has carried me out of her memory.
with-you
برای مریم تا تو با منی گل برای من گل است. شب برای من شب است سبزه... سبزه است. برف ها برای من ژاله های خفته اند آبهای مرده اند ابرهای سال خورده اند. کوه ها برای من دوانتهای دره اند. تا تو با منی آسمان برای من... راه آبی پرنده است. گریه خاک خیس دانه های خنده است. تا تو با منی... رنگ برف ها سپید و رنگ ابرها کبود. تا تو با منی... ابر رنگ ابر دارد و.... دود رنگ دود بی تو زندگی چه سود. بی تو... روزها و.... برف ها و..... ابرها و.... شام ها.... نه سپیدشان سپید... نه کبودشان کبود... نه سیاهشان سیاه.... بی تو آسمان پاک سینه ام..... کهکشان هر ستاره گناه تو برای من... مثل جیوه ای برای آینه..... بی تو شیشه ام..... بی تو عمق من... پر از تهیست.... بی تو در کویر بهت من سراب نیست.... بی تو زندگی برای من سراب... بی تو نقش من بر آب... بی تو سرب سایه ها درون من مذاب.... سوز آه من... این کبوتر غمین گمشده... روی بام حنجرم به خون نشسته است.... خون خاموشی... در رگ ترانه های من لخته بسته است.... بی تو... شام ها و برف ها و ابرها..... نه... سیاهشان سیاه... نه... سپیدشان سپید... نه... کبودشان کبود بی تو زندگی چه سود ۱۳۴۲
For Maryam As long as you are with me Flowers are flowers for me. Night is night for me Greenery... is greenery. Snows are for me Sleeping dewdrops Dead waters Clouds are old. Mountains are the ends of valleys for me. As long as you are with me The sky is for me... The blue path of birds. The cry of wet soil is the seeds of laughter. As long as you are with me... The color of snow is white and the color of clouds is blue. As long as you are with me... Clouds are the color of clouds and....smoke is the color of smoke What good is life without you? Without you...days and....snows and..... Clouds and....evenings... Neither their white is white... Neither their blue is blue... nor their black is black... Without you, the sky is pure in my chest..... The galaxy of every star is sin You are to me... like mercury for a mirror..... Without you, I am glass..... Without you, my depth... is full of emptiness.... Without you, in the desert, there is no mirage for me.... Without you, life is a mirage for me... Without you, my footprint on the water... Without you, the lead of the shadows inside me is molten.... My burning ah... This dove of sorrow is lost... The roof of my throat is filled with blood.... The blood of silence... A clot has formed in the veins of my songs.... Without you... The evenings and the snows and the clouds..... No... their black is black... No... their white is white... No... their blue is blue Without you, what is the use of life 1342
For Maryam As long as you are with me a flower, to me, is a flower. Night, to me, is night. Green grass... is green grass. The snows, to me, are sleeping dew, are dead waters, are aged clouds. Mountains, to me, are the two ends of the valley. As long as you are with me the sky, to me, is... the blue road of the bird. The weeping of the wet earth is the seed of laughter. As long as you are with me... the color of snow is white, the color of clouds is blue. As long as you are with me... cloud wears the color of cloud, and... smoke the color of smoke. Without you, what good is life? Without you... the days, and... the snows, and... the clouds, and... the evenings... their white is not white, their blue not blue, their black not black. Without you the sky of my chest is bare... a galaxy where every star is a sin. You are to me like the quicksilver to a mirror... without you I am only glass. Without you my depths are brimming with emptiness... without you, in the desert of my stupor, there is not even a mirage... without you life is a mirage to me... without you my image is drawn on water... without you the lead of the shadows runs molten inside me... The burning of my sigh, this lost and grieving dove, has settled in blood on the roof of my throat... the blood of silence has clotted in the veins of my songs... Without you... the evenings, the snows, the clouds... no — their black not black... no — their white not white... no — their blue not blue. Without you, what good is life? 1342